Sunday, December 27, 2009

2009 - Year of the crudo


So about a year ago, during Christmas break - I really like this person, was depressed, sad, hating the holidays, and wanted to finish a zine that I had made the cover for on my ex-girlfriends computer like 6 months before. I didn't know what it was going to be about, but I knew it would be called "Vengeance" and have Tony Montana on the cover. Anyway, I did them shits in about a week and made copies with my friends and started to hand it out. I also put that magazine online and it 'blew up' to the sad degree that only things can in the anarchist scene can. What's ironic about the first issue, I still find funny. It's really just about being left by someone, having your life fall apart, feeling lovelorn over someone else, hating work, not really knowing what you're doing with yourself, and at the same time feeling lost in a 'revolutionary movement' that continues to make you feel alienated. Oh, and my poetry. But, who cares about that! Beyond that, the ideas behind Vengeance I still stand behind.

1.) Anarchism in more and more not a movement made up of subcultures - it has grown to become a subculture into itself. This is problematic because it makes anarchism insular, and keeps its participants locked within a scene - making it harder and harder for those within it to break out and make connections with that people who might share affinity with them.

2.) Anarchists outside of the insurrectionary scene often state that the 'ground work' for revolt must be built through 'concrete projects' which spread anarchist ideas and projects. This often equates to Critical Mass, Food Not Bombs, and Really Really Free Markets. Often, people want to 'bring fire to the savages,' and show people how to be anarchists through projects that amount to charity and activism. These projects often do nothing to materially benefit those who carry out these projects. These are all 'middle class' positions of thought, placing those carrying out the actions in a specialized role apart from those that they seek to organize. They are akin to those middle class reformers of the Progressive movement of the early 1900's in the US, who moved into working class areas to form half-way houses for working class children and push for the creation of parks to give people a place to relax after getting out of work. The push against capital must be insurrectionary - for it is the violent rejection of its power over our lives. Class conflict and social tension is all around us; we need to exploit these tensions into larger ruptures and destroy the left so it cannot recuperate autonomous self-organized class activity.

3.) Anarchists from working class backgrounds are often in much better conditions in making connections with other people who they might engage in projects and action with.

That's basically it. Train hat jokes aside. Some of the ideas got muddled - some of them got twisted into my own personal likes and dislikes and away from this original thesis, but what the fuck. Vengeance #2 and #3 were less well received and created less discussion, which is a shame, because especially for #3, I thought there was a lot more stuff to be discussed.

So, I've gotten to do a lot of cool things this year. I've gotten to speak in a lot of cool places, from the anarchist bookfair in SF, Bound Together Books, Evergreen College, Phoenix, Santa Cruz, and a bunch of other places. I even got paid once. I don't know if any of these talks have been helpful to anyone - I've gotten hardly any feedback from them from people.

The work of Modesto Anarcho Crew I think speaks for itself. We continue to organize ourselves as a material force - and sit around, play video games, and get intoxicated.

Oh, I got arrested for giving a speech. Always interesting. Still got that weapons charge - goody.

Vengeance as a publication is up in the air. I feel that I will put out one more issue - mostly of personal stuff. But after that - crudo must die. The image of 'crudo' is a hindrance to my ideas, and for them to be superseded crudo as an image must be killed and burned. My plans for things after my assassination will hopefully carry out such a project. So hopefully, in the new year, look out for something new from me that won't be under my moniker.

Any idiot can learn to use a burned version of photoshop. Any prole can steal a laptop. Everyone can write out their ideas. Anarchist celebrities are just as suffocating as all celebrities - and should be destroyed. People are put on a pedestal in this movement for becoming images and being well known throughout the scene - which is easy if you're willing to work hard and get your shit out there. While the real motherfuckas rot in jail, face charges, and put in the real work without fanfare. We as a movement continue to mythologize the man speaking in the room while the women cut the vegetables in the back and the go starry eyed over the person who wrote the zine while the person out there doing the shit is forgotten. Where is there to go when you've dethroned the old anarchist bourgeoisie and suddenly become the new ruling class? Walk yourself to the gallows...

This blog will continue. So be sure to keep reading, answer the funny polls, and leave as many snarky and critical comments as possible.

2010. Let's do it. Personally, I'm proud of all the work I accomplished this year. Hopefully the next year will be just as big. Toward class recomposition. Against the hatas. For the triumph of the war-machine.

19 comments:

  1. 1) barry pateman has had some nice things to say about this first point (in some recent videos that are up on the tubes), about avoiding the anarchist vacuum. the desire to only want to work with other anarchists and comrades who live up to the milieus' particular morality.

    2) anything "anarchist" to critical mass, really really free markets, food not bombs. and similar projects has been completely recuperated by the vanguard of the green and progressive lifestyle types that worship consumption at their "local" whole foods. now even my mom can be the crimethinker of 8-10 years ago and save the world by readjusting her daily habits. much that passes for the "anarchist subculture" is exactly that which is described above, the most radical of these middle class liberal elements.

    3) blue collar workers definitely and with exception the few white collar workers who recognize themselves as such and revolt against bougie values, are proles will continue to have revolutionary agency.

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  2. much respect for getting down to destroying your own mythology.
    and good luck with it. serious.

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  3. you ma boy c... word to what you and the anons said already... my 2 cents as follows:

    it's not that i don't think you understand this, because i know you do, but as far as 1. goes i think it's important to clarify *why* this is a problem. anarcho liberals will say very similar things as justification that we need to water our radicalism down and participate in reformist projects such as mentioned in 2. in fact, i've heard someone say exactly this in response to vengeance (that s.r. staffer...) this is because to them, as to any politician, missionary or ad exec, spreading ideas to the greatest number of people is, in itself, the ultimate goal. we of course have avery different understanding of contradiction. but the question that results from this, at least to my interest, is what role *does* communication play in the insurrectionary process? i think elaborating a bit more on the general nature of rupture could also help to illuminate this.

    too many anarchists are allergic to theory. it's not all just a war of ideas, but some ideas really are weapons. others are not. clarifying the difference between the two, to my mind, is a key role of radical discourse. you feel me?

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  4. I have the same question as wind-up bird, somewhat. I agree that this is mostly a working class conflict, but there ARE middle class people who have never been introduced to insurrectionary ideals and would only need a little budge to join our side. Some of them are pacifists and wouldn't join us because of that. Are we to show them no mercy? Do we expect them to join them when we become the majority? And at what point DO you expect we will become the majority?

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  5. no, you don't have the same question as me, at all.
    ill leave it to c to explain why though.

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  6. sorry, that was kind of shitty, i just thought it was a weird comment and didnt really recognize any of my own perspective in it. i'm still not sure i exactly get it. who are "we"? if "we" are proles, we are already the majority. if "we are" the consciously pro-revolutionary, then i doubt we will ever be a majority. it seems like you are suggesting a kind of coalition-building - but between whom? based on - what? "ideals"? i would address both of these aspects of your comment with the notion that revolution is not about "building the movement" to the point where it encompasses all of society, but building a war machine that can intervene effectively at opportune moments and push crisis towards communization.

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  7. I think there is something to be said about normalizing certain ideas of how to act - more and more I'm not into saying these are 'anarchist' or 'communist' ideas, but just ideas that make sense in the face of conditions.

    I think normalizing these concepts and also denouncing others is good, but I reject the idea that by building counciousness up to the point that people will then revolt when they've gotten their learn on.

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  8. your pic at the top is my city!!!! that's my peoples!!! buck buck!!!

    i guess all those "looting is fun" stickers/posters/graffitos that anarchists put everywhere in new orleans really paid off when the storm hit!

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  9. I'm sure it had more to do with people needing food, but I'm sure it didn't hurt.

    Where were the solidarity looting actions?

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  10. middle class is anyone with an ipod

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  11. It's obviously an essential part of having some sort of managing role in the economy and social life. How else will you dictate when Daft Punk gets played?

    Speaking of which, where's my pres-ers?

    city lights...

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  12. it looks like windupbird recently finished Nihilist Communism, talkin about the pro revolution and what not

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  13. MISSION DISTRICT!

    The massa is calling...

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  14. 7:58 here

    Thank you for clarifying, both of you. And no hard feelings.

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  15. this is all wierd. all i can tell is that crudo is the big shit and that if we let working class people read the stuff he writes they will be pro revolutionary insurectionaty anacho communist nihilsts. who drink beer.
    i did like how that one person said that because the anarhists spray painted something about looting people did it.
    rage on peeps!

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  16. oh yea, and i like the 'massa is calling' one too
    im new to this but i like it
    always rage'n.

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  17. fool i read nih com while you were spiking your hair at the olympia bookfair

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  18. crudo-
    they are lootin shoes and clothes, not food. on the main drag shopping street. in 2 feet of water, haha.

    but yeah, they were doin it because they could get away with it. that's what we should be about, helpin people feel like they can get away with more than they can now. that's it.

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