Sunday, December 27, 2009
2009 - Year of the crudo
So about a year ago, during Christmas break - I really like this person, was depressed, sad, hating the holidays, and wanted to finish a zine that I had made the cover for on my ex-girlfriends computer like 6 months before. I didn't know what it was going to be about, but I knew it would be called "Vengeance" and have Tony Montana on the cover. Anyway, I did them shits in about a week and made copies with my friends and started to hand it out. I also put that magazine online and it 'blew up' to the sad degree that only things can in the anarchist scene can. What's ironic about the first issue, I still find funny. It's really just about being left by someone, having your life fall apart, feeling lovelorn over someone else, hating work, not really knowing what you're doing with yourself, and at the same time feeling lost in a 'revolutionary movement' that continues to make you feel alienated. Oh, and my poetry. But, who cares about that! Beyond that, the ideas behind Vengeance I still stand behind.
1.) Anarchism in more and more not a movement made up of subcultures - it has grown to become a subculture into itself. This is problematic because it makes anarchism insular, and keeps its participants locked within a scene - making it harder and harder for those within it to break out and make connections with that people who might share affinity with them.
2.) Anarchists outside of the insurrectionary scene often state that the 'ground work' for revolt must be built through 'concrete projects' which spread anarchist ideas and projects. This often equates to Critical Mass, Food Not Bombs, and Really Really Free Markets. Often, people want to 'bring fire to the savages,' and show people how to be anarchists through projects that amount to charity and activism. These projects often do nothing to materially benefit those who carry out these projects. These are all 'middle class' positions of thought, placing those carrying out the actions in a specialized role apart from those that they seek to organize. They are akin to those middle class reformers of the Progressive movement of the early 1900's in the US, who moved into working class areas to form half-way houses for working class children and push for the creation of parks to give people a place to relax after getting out of work. The push against capital must be insurrectionary - for it is the violent rejection of its power over our lives. Class conflict and social tension is all around us; we need to exploit these tensions into larger ruptures and destroy the left so it cannot recuperate autonomous self-organized class activity.
3.) Anarchists from working class backgrounds are often in much better conditions in making connections with other people who they might engage in projects and action with.
That's basically it. Train hat jokes aside. Some of the ideas got muddled - some of them got twisted into my own personal likes and dislikes and away from this original thesis, but what the fuck. Vengeance #2 and #3 were less well received and created less discussion, which is a shame, because especially for #3, I thought there was a lot more stuff to be discussed.
So, I've gotten to do a lot of cool things this year. I've gotten to speak in a lot of cool places, from the anarchist bookfair in SF, Bound Together Books, Evergreen College, Phoenix, Santa Cruz, and a bunch of other places. I even got paid once. I don't know if any of these talks have been helpful to anyone - I've gotten hardly any feedback from them from people.
The work of Modesto Anarcho Crew I think speaks for itself. We continue to organize ourselves as a material force - and sit around, play video games, and get intoxicated.
Oh, I got arrested for giving a speech. Always interesting. Still got that weapons charge - goody.
Vengeance as a publication is up in the air. I feel that I will put out one more issue - mostly of personal stuff. But after that - crudo must die. The image of 'crudo' is a hindrance to my ideas, and for them to be superseded crudo as an image must be killed and burned. My plans for things after my assassination will hopefully carry out such a project. So hopefully, in the new year, look out for something new from me that won't be under my moniker.
Any idiot can learn to use a burned version of photoshop. Any prole can steal a laptop. Everyone can write out their ideas. Anarchist celebrities are just as suffocating as all celebrities - and should be destroyed. People are put on a pedestal in this movement for becoming images and being well known throughout the scene - which is easy if you're willing to work hard and get your shit out there. While the real motherfuckas rot in jail, face charges, and put in the real work without fanfare. We as a movement continue to mythologize the man speaking in the room while the women cut the vegetables in the back and the go starry eyed over the person who wrote the zine while the person out there doing the shit is forgotten. Where is there to go when you've dethroned the old anarchist bourgeoisie and suddenly become the new ruling class? Walk yourself to the gallows...
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2010. Let's do it. Personally, I'm proud of all the work I accomplished this year. Hopefully the next year will be just as big. Toward class recomposition. Against the hatas. For the triumph of the war-machine.